Proud to live the trans life

Being a proud transgender cannot be one of the easiest decisions to stand by but Kalki Subramaniam has done it because living a confused life was even more difficult. Kalki’s moment of truth came when she was 13 but when her family came to know all hell broke loose.

For the longest time she faced rejection and rebuke at every step of the way but she channelised all the disapproval to make something of herself. Today, as a noted actor-writer-activist she is one of the few transgenders in India, who are lauded for their achievements in the face of tough odds. But even as she enjoys her success she is acutely aware that “for the majority nothing has really changed, at least where social attitudes are concerned”.

According to Census 2011, there are nearly 4.9 lakh transgender persons in India but their numbers can’t be considered definitive because most parents are unwilling to accept a transgender child; they can’t come to terms with the fact that their offspring is unable to identify with his/her sex at birth and live in the hope that if ignored they would “miraculously” change their mind.

However, there is much more to trans-persons than their gender as women like Subramaniam, or A Revathi, a writer, or Gunavathy, a security guard at the newborn ward of a government hospital in Tamil Nadu have amply shown. Abilities and qualities are as much a part of one’s identity as one’s gender.

Transgenders can be straight, gay, lesbian or bisexual; their sexual orientation is entirely up to them. Most transgender persons struggle with this identity crisis as few are able to pluck the courage to acknowledge the fact that they are different. That’s because society, whether in India or abroad, gives a hard time to those who don’t follow societal norms.

A few would know that transgender rights first took centre stage when British model Caroline "Tula" Cossey was cast as a Bond girl in the 1981 Roger Moore starrer ‘For Your Eyes Only’. Her performance grabbed eyeballs till the British tabloid ‘News of the World’ came out with a front page headline that read ‘James Bond Girl Was a Boy’. Initially, Tula was so upset that she even contemplated suicide. But she eventually decided to fight back.

She petitioned for changes in the laws regarding transsexuals; her petition even reached the European Court of Human Rights. She fought till 1989 when the court legally recognised her as a woman! Thereafter, she went onto have a successful modelling career, was featured in several magazines including the cover of Playboy, wrote three books and became an icon of sorts for the transgender community.

Unfortunately, even now, few transgenders are able to achieve such levels of acceptance and recognition. Indeed, in India the transgenders are a particularly marginalised group which has to fight to secure its rights. Usually abandoned by their family and friends, for them even the basics like the right to education and employment are hard to come by forcing many to take to the streets early as beggars and prostitutes, abused and exploited.

Formal change came as recent as 2013, when the Supreme Court, in a landmark judgment, “affirmed the constitutional rights and freedoms of transgender persons, including those who identify as third gender and those who identify in a gender opposite to their biological sex”. The Court declared that no one can be discriminated against on the grounds of sexual orientation, which has opened up the gateway to seeking admission in educational institutions and employment as the ‘third gender’.

Significantly, it has directed the central government to devise social welfare schemes for third gender community and run a public awareness campaign to erase social stigma. “While this is really encouraging it will take time before there is some noticeable change.

There are thousands who still get the boot from the family and society. Maybe a few have finally started realising that we too are human beings who deserve an equal life,” remarks Subramaniam. She insists she’s not being pessimistic, “just real”. After all, thus far, those who have managed to carve their own niche have done so despite the many hurdles that came their way.

A double postgraduate – she has one degree in Journalism and Mass Communication and another in the International Relations – Subramaniam recalls how in a conservative South Indian Brahmin family of only daughters, when the doctor first told the elders that her mother had given birth to a baby boy there was unprecedented joy and celebration.

Yet, by the time the child hit puberty he realised that he couldn’t identify with being a boy and shared this perplexing feeling with his mother. Of course, he was told to “forget about it”. Ridicule and reproach followed him through school and college, as he was shamed for having feminine traits; he was not one of the girls and the boys refused to be friends with him.

“Isolation made me stronger. As I was alone, the only recourse left to me was to lose myself in studies. Coming from a family of highly educated people, academics came naturally to me. It is education that has really helped me to become who I am,” she affirms.

Once independent Subramaniam took a stand – she saved up money from her stint at a multi-national company and underwent SRS (Sex Reassignment Surgery). “Life became little easy after that,” she says. One of the first things she did after this surgery was to set up Sahodari Foundation, an organisation which works for the social, economic and political empowerment of transgender persons in the country.